Life can only be understood backward.
Believe in yourself, no matter where life takes you to. I usually think of the bigger picture, think about the great universe out there, about thecountries I have never been to, about the great people that made our modern society today when I’m down. And I know my way is still long enough for me to walk, to run and to discover. So, leave it behind and keep going k, my peep! (: And this is absolutely notthe end of your AIESEC story. Not at all. As long as you want something so bad and put al your effort, your heart into it, it will work someday. Maybe we have to travel the long way, but that doesn’t matter right? Try your best, dun care about the rest. Life, it is still there for you man!
You can do it. Indeed, you can. Never, never, never ever give it up.
excerpt from the email titled: it’s the climb
AIESEC Singapore MC application 2010 is one hell of an experience. I received an email from a dear friend of mine one day after the election, titled “it’s the climb”. I think I value this email more when I look back, that the will of wanting something so bad and put in all the effort, it works today. I especially like the line where it leads me to think about the great cosmic significance, the people and the world; the everything surrounding us that makes our challenges seemed so minuscule in comparison.
I receive another mail earlier that day, the very early morning when I returned from the night I got all tipsy from that Vodka:
You remember Hannah Montana movie we watched when I came back from K. Selangor? It was a predictable love story with full of cliches, but one thing actually touched my heart – the song called the Climb. When Hannah Montana decided to reveal her real identity as Miley Cyrus and stop lying to everyone. Ever since you decided to run for Singapore MC, it reminded me of you. There are some songs that remind me of people around me – this song will continue to remind me of you.
You’re going back home now. But don’t forget that you had impact on at least one person (me!), likely many more. I can only say it from my point of view – I really felt inspired and motivated by your decision to follow your dream and courage to take risk. I appreciate that you don’t lose your sense of humour even in the most stressful situations.
excerpt from the email titled:” =) “
This email soothed me a lot from the pain and sorrow of not getting what I really want. That aside, I’ve highlighted the part where I would like to share with anyone who read this post. I learned something from the Pope; something simple yet less practiced by many. It goes:
“I’m not a man who constantly thinks up jokes. But I think it’s very important to be able to see the funny side of life and its joyful dimension and not to take everything too tragically. I’d also say it’s necessary for my ministry. A writer once said that angels can fly because they don’t take themselves too seriously. Maybe we could also fly a bit if we didn’t think we were so important.”
-Pope Benedict XVI-
and I hope you appreciate the essence of this few simple sentences as much as I do.
This is suppose to be a post to wrap up everything from this busy month of May. But I’ve chosen to start by looking back. Once my friend told me she likes the way I constantly reflects about myself. I don’t really realize it not until she told me about that!
About my great escape, it’s not so big a thing that it could affect everyone around; it’s not so small a thing that I, and maybe some others as well, can forget for years to come. The process of getting appointed is itself a tremendous challenge for me; I believe the process in making this bold step counts and worthwhile is definitely going to be another huge wall for me to flip over.
It’s been, surprisingly, a very unique decision that triggers a lot of thoughts on life for me. I know deep inside me there lies a very rebellious side of me. I have never failed to notice the existence of it, and I had never make a conscious decision to actually answer its’ internal dialogue with me. I know I needed something in between several major events in life; such as the one I am clamped in right now, in between a students and a working professional. Just so I know this upcoming great commitment could possibly be diluting and skewing me away from where my academic background leads me to, I know also it could certainly helps me to find a path where I truly enjoy stepping onto.
I remember Ameen told me this when we were on our way back from a seminar:
The process in which a boy leaves his home to live on his own, is an important events in life to indicate the process of “growing up”
I had never come to this close to appreciate what he said until I got all my legal documents done early last week. Everything is seemingly fast forwarded since then, just so to make me realize I am too late to know that I am actually leaving. By saying leaving, I don’t feel myself is physically being “removed” from this environment that I sat comfortably in for years, but more to I feel that all familiar things around me are leaving me behind and they are soon to be gone. I might be a little meticulous and particular to differentiate these two feelings but trust me, if you could understand me, they are of two different sensations.
No. I am not leaving to a country where all people adores. It doesn’t have the perfect infrastructures in the city that makes every expats feel so easy to live in, nor that it has an environment so secured that personal safety is not an issue to concern. I am leaving to a country where people can easily associate it with napalm and war. It’s also a country known for its’ rich production of rice and coffee, as well as its’ position being one of the fastest growing economy in the South East Asia. It’s a country we call Vietnam.
I am not leaving there for a job that pays me a fortune, nor that I am getting a position so high on top that respect could be earned by flashing the title to everyone.
I need a hurdle in life to intimate me from thinking life is easy and things could be taken for granted. I need a hurdle in life to get me out of my comfort zone both physically and mentally, and make a great escape from being someone ordinary. I need this hurdle to measure my ability to challenge the social norm and status quo of the state of the world today.
It’s not easy. If I could stride through this huge hurdle in front of me, I know in future I could take on a greater amplitude of challenge and able to march towards my ambition.
Life can only be understood backward. I don’t know where exactly this will lead me to, but I know in future this will be one golden chapter in my life to be penned down.
Wish me a successful journey ahead and let me fly high from this point onwards!