Tonight I’ve chosen not to study on GPS, not to work on my NLDS session planning and preparation, not to analyze global market on men’s grooming products, not to read on The Zahir, Next 100 Years, and I’ve chosen to make myself invisible from the world literally – staying home, appear offline in all instant messaging programs. With only one exception, my phone is still on as I think mobile phone has long evolved from being a luxury item to a daily necessity. Should there be a phrase sounds “hourly necessity” or “secondly necessity”, there that will it be.
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Coming back to blogging, until now, updating this “beta” version of my virtual life journals has never been a regular component in my weekly schedule. I should be ashame of accusing my commitments held me up real tight, which when I rethink, there could be so much to be done if ever I have a better determination.
I lived miserably throughout the entire semester for one particular reason which I am obviously found guilt in it. It affected me so much that I couldn’t even measure the depth of its influence towards me. It hits me on my face and I always fail to reverse the situation. Too much into anything is never a wise move. I guess I really need to stand up and move on. This is not the first time I said so but as much as how mobile phone has evolved, my initial willingness to move on has change to being a need to move on. A necessity. Even though I don’t know where are we heading to in this, but I do appreciate the bright side of this relationship. Isn’t it scars on your tender skin last longer than the candy on your tongue?
Pretty sad to say when we review back to anything at its end, regret is the word whirling through our mind. There are things that I wish not to repeat it in the coming semester, my 8th semester, and my last semester. But again, seeing things through rhetorical light is not how we suppose to be. Instead, look forward. Whining about how much better it could have been is as useless as we said nothing at all (when you say nothing at all? Ronan Keating?). There is this one picture I like, from Thierry now in The Netherlands, written behind are the typical sugar cubes messages that you found in every AIESEC conferences. The highlight of the message is the ending quote:” keep looking forward”.
How true.
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As we grow up (about the inconvenient truth about my dissatisfaction towards aging, this, I will probably have another post in the future), how many events require you to leave a situation or a place where you have comfortably resided in? May it for years or for months, even for days. After all the magnitude of an impact is not about how large or how long or how many. It’s how deep and how heartfelt we are towards the happenings.
We are brought up in a such a way that security is what we take it as a need (today’s issue keeps circling around the same content :S ). I guess it’s in the nature of human that we don’t like taking risk, troubling ourselves endeavoring something precious laid outside of our comfort zone. We felt so much secure living in the same box for years. We grow together, eat together, socializing within the box and even think within the box.
And very little do we know there are so much more offered if we are willing to believe in our guts, and take that little one small steps towards achieving things that we like.
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If the saying life after death is not a theory, but a fact, I have a strong feeling that my previous life is a tiger. Born to the zodiac year of Tiger does make me a forceful person in the way I behave. Being directional and goal-oriented, objective-based or outcome focus person, I am very much possess what it needs to call it a stubborn leader. But that is not the point, I strongly believe my growing fond to meat (especially beef!) is one major supporting point to my predictions. Can you believe that I don’t eat beef not until I am in college year? (this I believe has a lot to do with my family who doesn’t eat beef at all!) May I be tiger, lion or any carnivore, preferably not reptiles because I still think 4 legged crawling things on their stomach is very scary and pretty gory when they bite. I need to work-out more often and that is my promise. I need to get rid of all the excess fats on my body.
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It’s not a matter of if you are greedy or not. It’s in the nature of human that we are born greedy. So it’s a matter of how greedy you are. And that differentiate between someone who is selfish and selfless.
Growing up, as you are getting well-versed and aware of everything, you learn that life is no fun. We have to learn to accept the unacceptable. This, coincidently coincide with my theory in old blog. Part of being in love is to learn to tolerate others as if nothing is tolerated.
I call it altruistic love.
When was the last time we pay so much attention and focus on something simple and lovely, and get interested in the mechanism of even the slightest change on the thing around us.
Let’s see what the information circulating on the web has to say about “my iPhone…”
Okay. I am still craving for getting an iPhone. This is another one of those time I hate being a Malaysian. Roger’s exclusivity in Canada is coming to an end, when will other service provider breaks Maxis’ monopolized market in this?
Skit
